Focus your talents on some other field of work, being an artist will only ever bring you failure. There will always be people better than you, who can do exactly what you do, but 10x better with far less effort.
Watching art streams as of late has been teaching me that, it takes me hours to do a good drawing, then I see someone flawlessly push out a really good piece in far less time, making me wonder what my purpose of being an artist even is. It sort of just breaks your spirit you know?
And as of late, I can't even muster myself to draw something without being told what to draw. Once I finished commissions, I realized I felt incredibly empty. I try to pick up my tablet and draw a cute picture, or some inflated character, and I can't even be bothered to do so. I know what I want to draw, I just can't muster up the spirit or drive to draw it, and every passing day that I don't draw/provide content for my watchers/followers hurts a little bit more. I feel like I'm letting everyone down by not drawing things on a regular basis.
And as of late, I've been wondering if this whole fetish artist thing is even worth it, I mean besides you guys, who's going to care? I can draw all I want, and have it forever be stuck in this shitty little fetish community.
But again, I've devoted so much time to this community and being a member of it, that it's become part of my life, I can't just up and leave.
So yeah, forgive the ramblings of an incredibly depressed, poor college student who can't even make it as a mediocre fetish artist
Listening to: Dark Souls III Ost